Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Yearning of my Heart

Hi all!

It's my second post today... this doesn't happen very often. But I'm feeling very passionate about something, I've been posting about it for the past two days. I'm such an emotional wreck about it. I don't feel hungry (and yes, I'm still eating), I'm not thirsty, all I want to do is go outside and walk (no matter the time), listen to music, it's causing me headaches, I just feel down right upset most of the time. I really want to just cry all the time.

All these dreams that I have in my heart are eating at me, I want to accomplish big things. Help change people's lives. Travel the world. Experience other cultures and live with them. Be married to the man of my dreams. Earn my Master's degree and graduate with high honors. Become a successful Marriage and Family Therapist (by successful I mean, knowing what to say to help and heal families). Maybe have my own practice. Start a family with Abid. Move to a different part of the country. Really experience life and live it to the fullest.

God wouldn't give me these dreams for no reason, I know that I need to live them out. But I don't know how to. My prayer is that God shows me how I can begin living out my dreams and that He will use me in amazing ways. Deep down inside, I know that God is using me now, but I want to be doing more. Typically I am a patient person, but with this it just seems different. I'm yearning for so much more than what I'm doing right now. And yeah, I realize that my dreams will take time. I can't earn my Master's overnight or open my own practice tomorrow or become a successful therapist right away. But I am going to try and embrace life and live it to the fullest now. And I am going to be traveling soon, it's just within the US, but it's better than nothing. I'm going to Texas, I've never been there before, and I plan to enjoy every minute of it and experience as much as I can.

Time for a little prayer: Lord, please still my heart. Help me to accomplish everything I have ever dreamed and more. I know you didn't give me these ambitions and dreams for no reason, so please show me your will for my life. Amen....

Sorry for my little rant, but I've felt so passionate about this lately. I would really appreciate any thoughts and prayers about this. I need guidance in this. I need to see God's will. I pray He reveals it to me.

Until next time.


1 comment:

  1. Knowing what you want in life and what your goals are is the first step! I'm sure you will do amazing things! :)

    xo, Yi-chia
    Always Maylee