Friday, February 1, 2013


Eh, I don't know what's wrong with me lately. Okay, that's a lie, I do know what's going on. My mind is going crazy and I've been so emotional lately. It's fairly obvious to me why that it. I miss Abid more and more as each day passes. The longer we are apart, the more I want to be with him. It's just getting harder every day to be without him. :( Gosh, it's like I'm crying at least once every day, especially tonight. I just want to be in his arms right now. To spend every day and night with him. Laughing, smiling, fighting, crying. No matter what we go through, all I know is that I want to spend my life with him.I just don't know how much longer I can take being apart from him. :( It seems like all I want to do today is turn to food, and a lot of it.

Abid and I have been apart for 8 months now and it's always been hard but lately it's just gotten worse. We are in love and really want to start our lives together. It pains me even more because I can see the yearning in his eyes on how much he wants us to be together. At this point, we don't even care where we are, we just want to be together.

The worst part about it is that I feel like I have no one to talk to talk to about it. I would talk to my best friend but she's never been in love before, so she doesn't understand. I'd talk to my other good friend, but she's in Texas and busy with her wedding planning.  And most of the other people don't really know the situation very well. Believe me, I love my friends and they are the greatest but there's just not that many of them.

I'm sorry to all of you who are reading this, because I hate complaining. As it shows in most of my blogs, I am a very positive person. And I feel like I need to be strong all the time in front of my family, friends and even Abid sometimes. I've never liked showing weakness, because then I would have to admit that I have faults. (Yes, I know that I have faults, I just don't like admitting that). It's just depressing me and making me feel so alone. Eh... all I know is, I want to be with Abid soon.

Until next time.



  1. Long distance relationships are hard--and I think, even harder when you're already engaged and know that you want to be together for the rest of your lived! My husband and I were in a ldr for our entire relationship till he moved to my state two weeks before we got married! Skype and phone calls and emails help, but there's nothing like having your loved one with you, is there?

  2. First, I want to say that its ok to vent and to allow your emotions to show. It makes us human:-) Don't be ashamed of it. I know it may seem hard. Be strong and if you need to cry to get it out do it. 8 months seems like a long time so you are one brave woman. I pray that God strengthens you through the rest of the time frame that you and your fiance will be apart. Be strong:-)