Sunday, January 27, 2013

Year 1 Day 128 (Day 493)

Good morning all! I am so tired this morning because I did not sleep well last night. Hopefully tonight will be better. Right now I wish that we kept coffee at home, but alas, we do not. And I don't have a working car at the moment, so I can't go buy a coffee either. :( Oh well, hopefully I can go to bed semi-early tonight. (Not like I have much to do tomorrow anyways). I'm ready to face today, and I won't overeat tonight, I'm determined to do well today.

I'm sort of upset with myself this morning, I've realized that whenever I have a week where I gained weight/maintained that I become obsessed with the scale. And I absolutely hate that because ultimately I don't want to rely on that machine that tells me a number. Yesterday, I stepped on the scale and it still said the same number that it did at my weigh-in. So what do I do today? Step on the scale again, of course, but today the number went down. It was back to the point where I was before my 2 lb gain last week. As happy as that made me, I am still really upset with myself. Why am I relying on that number to gauge anything? I am worth more than what that tiny machine tells me.

Last night as my parents and I were dropping off my one niece and my nephew at home before heading to church, I took a picture of myself in our car and I think it turned out wonderful. It was darker out, so the only enhancement I did was making it lighter. Plus that coat I'm wearing, is my new one that my SIL gave me. :) It's from Maurices and it's too cute! A little snug still but as I keep losing weight/inches, it will begin to fit better. Its a size 2 (which equates to a 20/22), so that's pretty exciting. All of my size 24 clothing is too big now and I am in size 22 just about everything! It's the little things in life that make me happy. :)

I realized today that I am only 2.1 lbs away from reaching my next goal, and that is not being extremely obese. :) I've got faith in myself, and I will reach that goal this week or next week. I'm going to keep workout out hard, like I always do, and eat only to my calorie goal. Eating to my calorie goal will be a challenge today, but I will accomplish it. This week, I will not let the food conquer me, I will conquer the food. After I do reach this goal, I will have a little while before I reach my next goal (18.5 lbs to be exact). But I know that when I do reach that goal, it will be a major celebration for me, because that will be 50 lbs lost! And I realized that as of today, I am only 35.6 lbs away from my lowest adult weight (my weight before my best friend died). I am hoping to reach that weight, this year.
Every pound or ounce that I lose now is a new record for me. I've never lost this much weight and kept it off. Before I could lose 5 of 10 lbs but never anymore because I would lose motivation and gain all of the weight back and more. So I am very proud of myself for sticking to this for as long as I have (1 year, 4 months, and 6 days!). I may not have lost a ton of weight for that amount of time, but I have lost 29 lbs. from my body and decreased my body fat percentage by 4.36%. Along with countless inches along the way. Not to mention that I just feel so much better and have so much more confidence.

Before I forget, I want to start going over my weekly goals for the week before and seeing how I did on them. (Before coming up with goals for this week).
1. Nutrition
My goal was to stay within my calorie goal every day this week. Sunday-Tuesday were bad nutritionally, but Wednesday-Saturday were awesome! I would give myself a C+, because I cleaned up my act and did well after those first few days.
2. Fitness
My goal was to work out 3 days last week (because I could start working out again until Wednesday), I worked out Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. So I think that deserves an A. 
3. Motivation
My goal was to not let my craving get to me and to stay positive. Well like I said under my nutritional goal, the first 3 days were bad, but that last 4 days were great. Plus I did stay pretty positive even after recording a gain this week. So I will give myself a B-. 
4. Water
My goal was to drink at least 128 oz every day, and I excelled in this goal (like I always do). In fact, I had 2 days where I drank 160 oz. :) So I will give myself an A+. 
5. School
My goal was to finish up all the paperwork needed for me to start school. Well, I would have gotten this done if my parents had all of their tax information. So I was unable to complete this goal, but I will work on it again this week. The IRS was given until the 30th to send out all paperwork, and it will be the 30th on Wednesday, so hopefully I'll be able to complete this goal next week. But I did get 2 of my 3 transcripts sent out last week. So I will give myself a B-. 
6. Emotionally 
My goal was to not let my emotions get the best of me. As some of you may know, I am an emotional eater. I did okay with it this week, could have done better, but could have done a lot worse. Sunday-Tuesday were a killer when it came to emotional eating. Wednesday-Saturday were better, but I still gave in to some of the foods I was craving. I had a few cookies throughout the week, a bowl of ice cream, and way too many cheesy potatoes last Sunday. But I think I cleaned it up pretty well as the week went on, this is something that I will need to continue working on every week though. So I will give myself a C+.
7. Blogging
My goal was to blog at least 5 days per week, and this past week, the only day that I didn't blog was Monday. I surpassed my goal, so I will give myself an A. 

Now my goals for this week, yes they are exactly the same as last week. But I realized that all of them are things that I do struggle with (besides blogging and school). The school one will be gone after I get all of my paperwork done but the rest of them will probably be the same every single week. 
1. Nutrition
Stay within my calorie/carb/fat/protein goals every day this week. (I reevaluated my calorie goal and it has decreased by 10 calories)
2. Fitness
Complete the 30DS at least 5 days this week, which will put me at level 2, day 6
3. Motivation
Stay positive and I won't let my craving get to me
4. Water
Drink at least 128 oz of water every day
5. School
Finish up my paper work needed to start classes, as soon as I have all the necessary information
6. Emotionally
Don't let my emotions control me
7. Blogging
Continue to blog at least 5 days per week

Well I suppose, it's about time to start making some lunch. I hope everyone has a wonderful day. So until next time.

~Sara~

6 comments:

  1. I love what you said, "I will not let the food conquer me, I will conquer the food". I am going to keep reminding myself of that this week! Great post and congrats on your weight loss!
    Theresa

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    1. Thank you! This is something that I struggle with each week, I always let food get the best of me and I am tired of it.

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  2. You are doing a great job and I struggle too focusing in the number. We can do this though!!!

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    1. Thank you! It's tough, but I know we'll get through.

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  3. You look great!! I have become scale obsessed also :(

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