I hate being one of the largest people in the room at all times. I hate the stares I get from people. I hate being in a restaurant and seeing people stare at what I'm eating. I hate having to shop in specialty stores or in a different section of a store. I hate seeing double digit clothing sizes. I hate having my stomach be so large. I hate the mirror. I hate my flabby arms. I hate my big thighs. I hate my shapeless butt. I hate seeing an X before my shirt size. (From the x-rays that I've seen of myself, I am big boned, so I'll never be tiny, but I want to be healthy) I hate being tired half the time. I hate my rolls. I hate how I look in a swim suit. I hate tiring out from running in 2 or 3 minutes.
There are no more excuses, I'm done with feeling like this. From here on out I am going to try even harder to lose weight. Because I never want to feel like this again. I want to look in the mirror and say that I look fabulous. I want to be able to walk into any store and be able to just pull something off the rack and have it look amazing on me. I want to be able to walk up the stairs without being out of breathe. I want to have people staring at me because of how good I look. I want to be more comfortable in my own skin. I want to wear a bikini and look gorgeous in it. I want to run a 5K without stopping.
I am so much more than what the scale says, I am beautiful no matter what. So I will never relate my worth to what the scale says because it does not describe me. I am a wonderful person inside and out, no matter what anyone else tells me. I will be great. I will be confident. I will love myself. Nothing is impossible. I can accomplish anything that I put my mind to. This picture explains it all:
This time I won't ever quit. This is my new lifestyle and I love every minute of it. The time is now. Carpe Diem. Nothing with ever stop me.
You may not know me now, but you will by the end of everything.
~Sara~
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