Moving Forward in Recovery

 Hi, all!

It is another hot one here today, only two more days until this crazy heat ends. The end is in sight and 60-degree weather is on the horizon. I am so ready for that change because I hate the hot weather. Zak and I went outside for a few minutes this morning around 9 and it was already almost 80 degrees. I am so thankful that we have an air-conditioned house and vehicle.

I am happy to announce that I am officially 4 days binge free. There were different times yesterday where I was wondering if a binge would happen because my mind was fried. I had a panic attack and binges usually happen surrounding when I have a panic or anxiety attack. I am incredibly proud of myself for going this long without one because that has not happened since June. I am hoping that this means that I can continue to move forward with my recovery and not continuously take steps backward. I am excited that today is day 5 binge free, but today will be a challenge. We typically have family over for dinner on Sunday nights, which means there will be a bunch of food. Tonight, we will be grilling out with burgers, brats, and hotdogs. So, I have already done some pre-planning and put it in my food planner. Now I just need to stick to it and I will be good.

It has been really difficult for me since we do not have a working scale right now. We recently moved, so it has been packed away and it needs new batteries. Not being able to track my weight throughout this journey is a new experience for me. In some ways, it is refreshing because I am not so focused on the number on the scale but it would be nice to see my progress. I am hoping to get the scale set up sometime today so I can weigh-in tomorrow morning. I have not weighed myself in a while, so I am interested to see what it is now.

Well, I am off. I need to get some homework done before we have people over tonight. I hope you all have a wonderful day! Until next time.

~Sara~

This Journey is Personal

Hi, all!

It is another hot one here today so I will be spending most of my time inside. As my late post, yesterday stated, I did not binge! That is three days in a row without a binge and I am SO proud of myself! It has been a long time since I have not binged every day. Now I am going on day 4 binge free and I cannot wait to see what the day holds. After I took my walk this morning, I sat down and looked at my numbers from this week. Even with the binge on Tuesday, after my exercise calories and food, the deficit is 2635 calories. It could have been a lot more without the binge but I am counting this week as a win.

One thing that I realized this morning while I was walking is that I love making healthier food choices and working out. My body feels better when I do these things. Before it was hard to see these things because I was continuously fueling my body with tons of extra calories than necessary. All I would eat is high-calorie food, with very few fruits and vegetables. My body was craving something nutritious. Don't get me wrong, I am not perfect all the time and I still feed my body junk sometimes. Right now I'm eating a pint of Halo Top Mint Chip ice cream and I'm enjoying all 240 calories of it. But for dinner, I had some stead and peaches, which were absolutely scrumptious. In my nutritional plan, I will not deprive myself of anything. In my past experience, that is when I binge on those things that I want but do not give myself. All I can do is find a plan that works for me.

Well, it's getting late and I am going to finish enjoying my Halo Top Mint Chip ice cream, watching a movie, and spend some time with my husband. Until next time!

~Sara~